Off-track blues
We are in the final days of the off-track schedule (they go back Wednesday) and I think everyone is breathing a quiet, but unmistakable sigh of relief. The first week was awesome with Disneyland and all that, but in these past two weeks the girls and I have been slowly driving each other crazy. Today they pretty much followed me around all day with that pleading look in their eyes declaring how bored they are and whyyy can’t we ever do anything fuuun! Part of the problem is mine. As I’ve mentioned before, we’re in the middle of something scary financially and I feel like it is slowly sucking the life out of me. I can’t escape the worry and the gnawing anxiety is starting to consume me. I know there are many people with a lot bigger problems than mine, but that kind of perspective doesn’t always help and I sometimes feel very sorry for myself. I feel like I’m slowly falling down a black hole and every time I try to dig myself out, something else happens that kicks me down further. It’s a long story, but basically we trusted a family friend and partnered with them on a construction project. One year later, the construction never happened and our partner has disappeared with $100,000 of our (borrowed) money, and the bank wants it back. So we’re in the middle of lawsuits and countersuits and the only ones it seems to be helping are the lawyers. I don’t know how long it will take for everything to resolve, our lawyer figures an optimistic estimate is six months, but once it’s over, there’s a pretty good chance we’ll end up owing at least part of the loan balance. Whatever that amount, we’ll mostly likely have to sell our house to come up with it. The area we’re in has changed a lot in the three years since we bought our house and now there’s nothing comparable in our price range. So, we’ll probably end up having to move out of state to a less expensive area. In some ways, it would be good, a kind of symbolic gesture that we’re putting the past behind us and literally moving on, but it’s a lot to think about right now. We bought our house with the intention of putting down roots and staying at least until the girls were out of high school, but now it looks like things are going to change whether we want them to or not.
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October 19th, 2006 at 4:00 am
Oh that sucks! Money worries are always scary. Not to mention Disneyland (I’m pretty sure at least one of the dressed-up staff would sneak up behind me and frighten the life out of me…)